smile of yours

i watched you fell helplessly
while you were wearing that smile so lovely
with such figure so dainty
i could feel my heart went icy
as i knew the end will only be misery
but your laugh gave me life
so i made a paragraph
about the worst you'll have
but the paragraph remain a draft
as i'm just a coward
but you know very well about that
i could feel your eyes darted
when the time we met
asking what is it that i'm hiding
but i kept the silence hanging
because i couldn't help but feeling
that it was your happiness i will be ruining
even so i hope the worst won't be happening
and the joy will be everlasting
until today i'm still dreaming
you on the sunflowers field running
nonetheless reality got me waking
the dress you were wearing
came back in red so daunting
so i'll end everything

for your sake my darling